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Thursday, April 7, 2016

Why Me?

As I've been wont to do these past two years since coming down with Parkinson's Disease, I've written a poem for Parkinson's Awareness Month, which is April. Last year's can be found on this blog. I didn't want to let this year lose out, so I created one for it.

My wife said it was the best poem I'd ever written. Maybe, but it did make her cry, so that's a good sign. So I introduce to you this year's Parkinson's Awareness Month poem.

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Why Me?


R. L. Copple


A somber doctor's face meets my eyes.
His wrinkled forehead foreshadows bad news.
My future transforms to shadows
As I hear the words echoing in my ears:
You have Parkinson's Disease.

I ask, “Why me?”

As limbs stop responding to my desires
While fingers take on a mind of their own,
In a body-wide rebellion against my will—
Popping pills works, sort of, but is not a cure—
Jealously I see others walk with steady ease . . .

I ask, “Why me?”

Watching the march of PD's progress,
Looking to science for a brain time-machine,
Finding no counter-attack to halt its surge,
I'm tempted to shelve future plans and goals,
To hunker down and survive day by day—

I ask, “Why me?”

But then the truth dawns on me.
Which of us are free from tragedy?
Rare is the one who escapes unscathed
From diseases, death, and shocks in life.
Why did I think, “It'll never happen to me”?

I ask, “Why not me?”

Actually, there is still much I control:
I can love and enjoy my wife and kids.
I can push the boundaries of my abilities.
I can fight against the overwhelming odds,
Like the brave soldiers of the Alamo.

I ask, “Why not me?”

Hardships teach us the reality we skip
In our daily hustle from birth to grave.
We are not alone, but interconnected.
So selfish dreams are replaced with
Empathy and compassion for others.

I ask, “Why not me?”

Who do I think I am to demand
An escape from the furnace of fire
That burns out ego-centric impurities—
Focusing me toward humble submission
To God and my fellow life-travelers.

So I say, “Here am I, O Lord.
Only You can make the bitter waters, sweet.”

Friday, February 19, 2016

Exercise Benefits and What Not

It's been a year since I started my exercise routine to help combat Parkinson's. Has it helped? What improvements have I noticed if any?

I discuss that as well as updating you on a few other issues I'm dealing with in this video blog entry. Because of all the information, it is a little longer than usual (just over 25 minutes). But hopefully you'll find it informative. Thanks for checking in!


Tuesday, October 27, 2015

An Update

I'm way overdue for an update on how things are going. I've been trying to find time to do so over the past few months, but responsibilities kept getting in the way. As a result, I have so much to talk about, but I'll try to keep it pithy.

Amantadine


Last blog post I did, I talked about the drug Amantadine that my neurologist prescribed for me back in June. So I'm sure you've all been waiting with bated breath how it has turned out.

By way of remembering, this drug was prescribed to help me get rid of my dyskinesia (random movements resulting from using Sinemet and Azilect together, which for me was mostly head bobbing and left leg movements/toe curling).

When I first took it, it extended my dyskinesia from being a peak dyskinesia lasting about 2 hours, to extend it over most of the Sinemet dose, around 5 hours. Not good. But I remembered that my neurologist indicated I'd probably need to lower my Sinemet dosage, that I should experiment and find the right sweet spot of the mix of drugs for the best results.

So I cut my Sinemet dosage in half. That did result in losing my dyskinesia, but it also isn't as effective in controlling the tremors. The tremors weren't horrible, but sometimes get there between Sinemet doses. So it was a choice between having some tremors, or dyskinesia and very minor tremors.

The one benefit aside from that is Amantadine has helped my left hand to work better. It seems most effective, symptom-wise, in reducing my left arm's distonia (stiffness and muscle pain). That means I can type a little easier. That means, theoretically, I can do my writing easier. Which to a degree I have, though not a lot due to other high priorities on my to-do list. Because of that benefit, I've chosen to continue using Amantadine and put up with the tremors it leaves me with. For now anyway.

But the tremors are not all I have to put up with. There are side-effects, mostly minor. Increased constipation. More swelling of my left foot, especially if I don't get enough sleep. Slightly blurry vision, especially up close (that was happening before using the drug, which I think made it a little worse). A bit more sensitivity to light in my eyes; I've had a pair of prescription shades made to help deal with that while driving.

Thankfully, I've not experienced other side-effects which tend to cause some to stop using it. The most common is stomach upset. One of the more rare, but I know someone on a support forum who had this happen three months into using it, is hallucinations. No, that doesn't include my hallucinations of grandeur.

So for now, my prescription medications include Sinemet 14.5/50 mgs 3x/day (sometimes 4x/day), Azilect  1 mg 1x/day, and Amantadine 100 mgs 2x/day. That seems to be my best combo at this time, though not ideal. But I've yet to have a medication mix that is ideal--erasing all major symptoms.

CDP Choline


Another substance I've happened on lately is CDP Choline. A documented study showed the chemical compound increased dopamine production, as well as being neuro-protective, help cellular mitochondria perform better, and aided in improving memory function and/or slow the rate of dementia in those who have it.

It can be bought as a supplement. So I've been taking it in conjunction with Amantadine to help boost dopamine levels a little higher, as well as for its other benefits. So far, so good. I can't point to any specific noticeable symptom improvements, so if there are any, they are not particularly obvious. But I'm continuing to take it in faith that it is helping, and it may help fight the disease. I've also noticed no side-effects either, though the first dose or two, my body was adjusting to it.

I'm taking 1000 mgs 2x/day of it.

Inosine


Inosine is a substance currently proceeding to a stage 3 clinical trial, as noted recently on the Michael J. Fox Foundation's website. It has shown evidence of being able to slow the progression of Parkinson's. It and a cancer drug, nilotinib, are the two most promising substances currently in clinical trials, with solid hope of slowing this disease down. Currently, no drug has proven in clinical trials to be able to do so. Consequently, there is much excitement and hope in the Parkinson's community about these drugs.

The difference between the two is the cancer drug nilotinib costs currently around ten thousand dollars a month. Meanwhile inosine is available as a cheap supplement; a monthly supply is around ten dollars. That means I'd need a doctor's prescription and be rich to use nilotinib, but inosine is available and affordable now.

You'll note the cautions about using it on the MJF article about it. But the trials have shown it is generally safe to use. But since they've not revealed the ideal dose for safety and effectiveness yet, I figure sticking with the prescribed supplement dose will be safe until clinical trials show what the dosage should be for the most effective treatment. If the supplement dose is too low, at least I'll be one step ahead when it comes out in drug form, assuming it does.

So I've been taking it for a couple months now. No noticeable symptom improvements, but I wasn't expecting any as I'm taking it to slow the progression of Parkinson's and that is something I won't be able to know whether it is happening or not. Nor have I noticed any side-effects. I'm currently taking 500 mgs 2x/day of inosine.

Vitamin D3 and Zinc


My friend, Michael Strong, brought my attention to the link between vitamin D and cognitive improvement in diseases like Alzheimer's and Parkinson's. In my research, D3, when combined with Zinc and Magnesium, makes for an effective treatment for the prevention of dementia or the improvement for those with the condition. I was already taking magnesium, so I added a D3 and zinc supplement to my list of pills back in June.

I haven't noticed drastic improvements, but then again, so far I don't have dementia. That said, it seems I'm having an easier time thinking, especially in finding the right word to use. I still find myself struggling at times to find the word I'm intending to use, but now seems less frequent.

A word about dementia in Parkinson's. From watching a webinar on MJF website, and other research, there are two things I need to convey.

One, I've mentioned before that I've read 60% of Parkinson's patients will come down with dementia. But I qualified it saying it applied to those who start showing symptoms after the age of 60. I started showing symptoms at 51, so I don't fall into that category. But I recently read that overall, around 30% of Parkinson's patients will end up with dementia. So I wanted to give a more accurate picture of my potential to end up with that symptom.

Two, there are various levels of dementia, from minor to full-blown memory loss. The key thing to know is just because one has a minor dementia symptom does not mean they are destined to eventually have full-blown dementia. So suggesting that I might have some very minor cognitive difficulties as a result of this disease is not saying I'm destined to not know who my wife is at some point down the road.

Deep Brain Stimulation


I've discussed this before. My neurologist mentioned it to me two visits ago. At first I viewed it as a last resort, when the Sinemet no longer is effective in controlling my symptoms. After all, we are talking about sticking a probe down in my brain, and there is the risk of brain damage, however slight, to the process. So I was a bit squeamish about doing it.

But there has been a movement lately to do it earlier than later. One because it will be effective beyond the 5 years commonly quoted. It just means moving the probe on occasion to restore effectiveness due to the build-up of resistance over time to the electrical pulses around the probe. Two because if done earlier, it can eliminate the need for medicine like Sinemet, providing a longer quality of life. If done later, it only reduces symptoms and the amount of drugs needed to manage symptoms.

The prospects of being drug-free and somewhat "normal" again, allowing me to put more time and efficiency into writing, is very motivating. I'm now seriously wanting to look into this option. As a result, I expressed this desire with my neurologist back in June. He said the next step would be for me to see a Movement Disorder Specialist to be evaluated. So I indicated a desire to proceed. Strangely enough, I've not heard of anything happening on that front, or a referral being done. I need to check back with him, though my next appointment isn't too far off. In December if I recall correctly.

But there is part of me that would prefer a new procedure in development which is non-invasive using ultrasound and a MRI. Unfortunately, who knows how much longer it will be before it is widely available and approved by the FDA. The best I could do is find out how to sign up for a trial on it. Probably a long shot.

So, as I find out more about my chances for DBS, I'll let you know.

Exercise


I'm still doing my exercises I mentioned before: Zumba 4x/week, Pilates 2x/week, Hydro Fit 1x/week at my local Y. According to one instructor, I've become an inspiration to many there, probably along the lines of "If he can do that dealing with his disease, then why am I slacking off?" Apparently I'm talked about regularly as an example of someone not resigning themselves to defeat and fighting back.

Despite that schedule, I noticed my left arm especially, but also my right arm, losing muscle strength. A common result of Parkinson's as muscles deteriorate from constant movement of tremors and distonia. So I decided to up my game.

On the cardiovascular front, I've added a class called Body Step. Essentially an intense cardio workout using a bench you step up and off of in various patterns, in this case, synced with music. Much more intense than Zumba, which at first was exhausting but now only slightly so. It also works on strengthening the legs, obviously. The first time doing it, I was huffing and puffing after each song. Now, about 4 weeks into doing it, I'm still huffing and puffing, but I've noticed it isn't as exhausting as it was at first, so I'm improving.

Then to help the rest of my muscles, I've started going to Body Pump once a week. As you might imagine, it is a workout with weights set to music. Like Body Step, it is pretty intense. I'm using very low weights, and I've learned my weakest exercise is full lunges. So far, I've not been able to do them all, but I'm getting close. But I can tell already that it is helping my strength return.

So now my weekly schedule is:

Monday - Zumba and Pilates
Tuesday - Body Step
Wednesday - Zumba and Pilates
Thursday - Body Pump and Zumba
Friday - none
Saturday - Zumba and Hydro Fit
Sunday - none

This is one reason I don't have as much time to write as you'd think I'd have not having a full-time job. But I do believe it is making a difference in fighting back on this disease. So I keep at it.

The funny thing is, my son who goes with me to Body Pump (he likes weight lifting) is out of commission for a couple days, while I'm continuing to go, go, go. Of course, he's using more weight than I am, but still.

Disability


Not much to say here. Only that my wife has been wanting me to apply for disability for quite a while. I've done some research into it, discovered I could qualify. But I had to get my 2014 taxes done first. That finally happened last week, so Friday I applied. It will help since lately we've been pretty tight financially. Not having both of us working, and the added expense of my medications and supplements, has taken its toll.

It won't be until probably this Friday that I'll know the status of the application, and who knows how long before I know if I'm approved or not. Sometimes I know it can take several appeals. So keep me in your thoughts and prayers for a quick positive decision.

That's all for now. Time for me to go to critique group, after I get dinner in the crock pot, and after that, Body Step. Woot!

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Exercise and Zumba

Today I have a "treat" for you. I'm revealing footage of a lumbering dude doing a Zumba dance. Aren't you excited!

More like a shaking, lumbering dude. As I explain in the video, I've been experimenting with my Sinemet doses in conjunction with my new medication to find a "sweet spot". I obviously wasn't in the sweet spot in this video. Trial and error is so much fun! Not!

Anyway, I update you on how that trial and error is going, and talk about the exercises I'm doing, along with the video of me doing one of our many Zumba dances.

The song is "Paso a Pasito," a Zumba original. The girl dancing with me is 11 years old and named Addy. She won second place in  a talent competition doing this song. She at least shows you what I should be doing. I need to think BIG movements more. lol.

Enjoy.


Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Dyskinesia and Doctor's Visit

Greetings and salutations!

I'm trying something new: a video blog in conjunction with this blog. It will allow me more flexibility and be able to show, not just tell you what is going on with me.

First up, I talk about my dyskinesia symptoms and what the doctor is hoping will help with it.

Enjoy!


Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Partners for Parkinson's Event

This past weekend, dovetailed into my 33rd wedding anniversary, my wife and I attended an event titled "Partners in Parkinson's," a group associated with the Micheal J. Fox Foundation which seeks to develop help for Parkinson's patients and their caregivers through sharing information and helping to develop a "care team" for the patient. (Now that's a good run-on sentence!)

Thought I'd give a summary of how the event went.

First, there was the obvious benefit of meeting other people with Parkinson's. You get to compare notes, see others are not only surviving this disease, but thriving. And of course we saw a few who were further along and in worse shape than I am currently.

Second, we discovered some new resources in exercise, and other similar helps. Several people emphasize the need for exercise to help deal with the symptoms of this disease. Info like that confirmed I'm on the right track with all the exercise I've taken on in the last couple of months. I believe it is helping me in more than one way, but it is hard to nail down specifics other than an overall feeling of doing better.

Third, we learned a few things that we didn't know before. Some of it relating to questions we asked one-on-one with panelist and a movement disorder specialist.

One of those was in relation to dopamine and its long-term effectiveness. We were told that it is a popular myth that dopamine loses its effectiveness through long-term use. Rather, the reason one needs to take more and more of it is because the disease progresses. As more dopamine-producing neurons die, it requires more and more of the drug to offset the loss of dopamine. So the slower the progression, the less of the drug that will be needed over a period of time.

Also learned more about why dyskinesia (involuntary movements as a side-effect of the drug) eventually happens. The neurons that produce dopamine also store it. In the beginning of taking the drug, not only is there less dopamine being thrown into the brain, but the neurons still alive are able to absorb and store some of it to help regulate how much is in the pathways at a given time. Too much overexcites the nervous system and causes the involuntary movements.

As more neurons die, not only is more dopamine needed via the drug, but the ability of the brain to store and regulate the dopamine levels diminishes, resulting in more dyskinesia due to too much dopamine hitting receptors, triggering movements the brain didn't intend.

What this means for me since I've developed dyskinesia so early may be either my progression has been fast and I've lost a significant number of neurons over the past two years, or my symptoms started later than most at my stage of neuron loss.

Another "myth" I learned about is the idea that deep-brain stimulation's (a pacemaker for the brain) effectiveness wears off around 5 years or so, then it's done. What really happens is the area around the probe gets "calloused" due to the flow of electricity from the probe. As it becomes less sensitive around the probe, it blocks more and more of the electrical current, making it less effective.

The solution to this is to move the probe to a different part of the brain. Then it can be just as effective as ever in regulating movement symptoms. So DBS isn't just a temporary fix. It just requires some maintenance for long-term use.

This is one reason why many are now suggesting DBS earlier than later. Early on, it can be sufficient to regulate movement symptoms without additional medications, resulting in a higher quality of life early on. As the disease progresses, DBS may not be able to stop all the symptoms and require additional medication. Typically people who get DBS in later stages are able to reduce their medications and still the combo doesn't eliminate all symptoms.

So if I wait until I'm pretty bad off, DBS may bring me back to my current condition. But if I get it now, I might be able to be "normal" without medication for a period of years. Which would give me more writing time and an efficiency I currently don't have.

I just have to get past the idea of having a probe stuck in my brain. But being "normal" for a few more years, and productive, is motivating me to consider it sooner than later.

Anyway, the event was worthwhile, and the whole weekend was good. We had a great anniversary and enjoyed visiting with friends we'd not seen in a while. Many blessings to count.